Saturday, October 23, 2010

God. I'm not very good at this.

Happy days are truly here again. Leaves are falling and crunching beneath my feet. It's a whole new season. A brand new phase of nature, another part of the wheel that turns, turns, turns. And nothing could make me happier. Forget your troubles and just get happy. You better chase your blues away. Shout hallelujah. Happy times, Happy nights. Happy days are here again.

I have a busy couple of weeks and a lot of things that I'd like to get myself involved in. I just need to find the energy and time. I nap too much. While everyone is doing whatever they do during the day, I've stayed in my bed. I want to learn martial arts. I want to do yoga and FEEEEEL WITH IT again. I need to learn to cook. I need to run. I need to tire out my restless body and rejuvenate my mind. I feel dizzy sometimes and lose my place in thoughts. I feel like sometimes my brain doesn't think in complete sentences. I just grab at sporadic ideas and feelings, hoping that it comes out making any sense. I need to quicken my pace during the day and slow myself during the nights. Lately, it's been the opposite. And I get confused. I'm going to commit myself to things and allow this new season to energize me and set me walking and hoping and loving. My life is reflected in the nature this year. And it is truly beautiful and I've always been secretly partial to Fall. This is when I keep songs in my heart and become anxious for a velvety Elvis to return into my life. I will be brave and boisterous and loud with love. I will hold close the ambling wind and rain, and night chills that send you to the warmth and comfort of friends and loved ones. Everyone is cold, but together we can revel in the warmth of our joy and goodness. This season is made for friends and lovers.

In short, there will be bailey's in my coffee/hot chocolate. And I'd love to pour you a mug, and I'll even add a few marshmellows.

Warmly and with all of my little heart,
Amanda

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