Crappy New Year!

Although I had the guy I wanted, the kiss I wanted, sometimes I just have to sabotage it. There's a quote from this movie that I heard a while back that I really, really need to follow. It goes something like, "Never, never look in your rearview mirror, darling. It makes no difference what's behind you." And I think that includes looking too much in others' rearview mirrors, also. I'm going to try to improve on this, I swear. I hate that dwell and stay up at night, peering at my ceiling; I wish I didn't think, analyze, or suspect. Just have to busy the mind.