hey, all!
sital's post inspired me to post-up on my life, as of late, which has consisted of working, grad-schools, and last week, sital's momentous visit back home, to the heart of her young adult life.
and it was wonderful. and what was most wonderful, was how we all made time to be together. sophie set aside time from her busy work and social schedule to be with old friends from yesteryears. ashlee stopped over to lunch it up, and even though it was only a couple hours, her presence made it truly complete. you can't get those sarcastic one-liners anywhere else. and, of course, there is sital...the commander and chief, so glad and refreshing to find someone with her honesty, ambition, energy, and passion.
seeing you guys this last week has reinvigorated my spirit. i feel happy. happy in all aspects. i've started listening to musicals (an american in paris, singin' in the rain, the drowsy chaperone) again, so you know times are good. i feel like sex and the city's miranda, "i love my friends, i love my life, I love my job." i really like my job, i'm good at it, and i'm quickly becoming a necessity. but, i don't want to do this all my life. i want to be a PROFESSIONAL. and i'm finally on my way. i recently heard this on a TV show, the main character said, "...i was in a really dark place in my life,...like, applying for grad schools dark..." and YES. it's a dark place. you're unsure and your life is sorta on PAUSE. and your entire future lies in the hands of a graduate committee, who assesses your worth, judging you against other people who are probably equally good at school and just as competitive (otherwise, they wouldn't be applying). However, I'm still optimistic because I'm finally doing it. I've spent the last two years, thinking about how I need to apply to grad schools, that need write that personal statement and save my money up and retake the GRE. this whole summer i've sat on my ass, studying and thinking and worrying...instead of beginning. And now i have begun and I'm going to finish this. Even if i get into only one school, it doesn't matter, because I'm still getting somewhere, using my degree and fulfilling a long-time dream. I'll get a good job, move out of my parents' house, and make a healthy salary, be worth something more than a waitress or associate. As high as my expectations are for myself, I think others, my friends and family, have even higher expectations for me, which I used to see it as a burden...but it's actually awesome. that everyone believes so much in me. So, I guess I'll top this post off with a cherry...thanks, everyone, for your constant support.
